What is love anyway? Can you love without trust? With spouses or significant others/ friends / family??
With Valentines Day around the corner, I have been thinking… I love everyone but I only trust God..sometimes we can’t even trust ourselves!!
I love God! I Love my kids! I love my boo! I love my family! I love life! I love my friends! I love my job! I love… I say this all the time but what does it mean?? Is it possible to love everyone else and not be sure if you love yourself? It was a hard long journey of learning to love me!!!! I learned that loving myself is one of the most exhilarating and fulfilling things in life! As a survivor of abuse, trust, attachments, relationships, emotions, and more so LOVE become very confusing… As a child you grow up thinking if they loved me why did this happen?? I trusted them and this is what happened… They lied and they are the adult? Who can I trust.. Who can I love? Or even harder who can I trust to LOVE ME? Relationships are such an integral part of life! Is it possible to love and not trust?? I do!!! From MY EXPERIENCES I have learned to trust people to be people/ human born in imperfection and sin. I do not give my trust as easily as I give my love. I can love you even if you don’t love me back, I can love you and know you don’t have my best interest in mind, I can love you and not feel any other emotional connection. BUT if I trust you…I trust you to treat me right, I trust you not to tell my secrets, I trust you to be there for me I trust you to be a friend, I trust you to understand me and my vulnerabilities- but not take advantage..So in the meantime I provide benefit-of-the-doubt and Love to everyone… I expect you to do whatever you are going to do. I’m not perfect either.. Sometimes I don’t trust myself!!! But I love the heck out of ME!!!
Stay tuned for my next blog- “I’m no Angel!”